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Self-Injury: It Shouldn't Be a Dirty Little Secret

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From TTWS reader Robyn comes this response to Lizzy's video:


I wanted to thank you for posting that video on self-injury. I have self-injured for ten years. It has now been a little bit over two weeks that I have not injured myself. I was only able to watch half of the video, and I hope to be able to watch the whole thing at some point-- I just know my trigger threshold and I didn't want to go overboard. As I am sure you know, there is so much stimga, shame, and fear that surrounds this behavior. Every time we do something small, whether it is posting a video, an article, interviewing someone who self-injures, etc.-- we are taking one more step towards breaking the silence.

I too had trouble watching the whole thing. My most recent self-injury episode wasn't that long ago. I couldn't believe that after years of not doing it, I found myself in CVS, buying razor blades so that I could cut myself in style -- not with a kitchen knife or cuticle clippers anymore. I was feeling a lot of confusion and pain, and the next day I told my psychiatrist. I hope not to do it again. But I think it's like the allure of purging for people who suffer with bulimia. It's always there, as a release. Doesn't work, though, which I think Lizzy's video really shows.

Comments

Dear Liz,

How about another U-tube video? Give us an update on you. I have enjoyed all your previous videos and have been checking, but since the Mother's day in NY Times one there haven't been any new ones. I hope that you are not depressed. Your videos are great.

I have thought that sometimes finding out you can do something is a bad thing. Before I swore in front of my parents I didn't know that I could do it, once I did it I knew I could, so now I know I can. It is the same with self harm, I didn't know that I could cut myself,now I do; I didn't know that it would help, now I do.

I also know the lasting effects - I just need to keep remembering them.

About "doing it in style" be careful, I broke barrier after barrier, set boundaries and stick to them.

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Liz Spikol is senior contributing editor of Philadelphia Weekly. She writes the award-winning column The Trouble With Spikol, which began as a chronicle of her struggle with mental illness, and has since expanded into humorous musings on everything from graphic novels to how to use a mop. She also writes the paper's book review column, Lit Gloss. This blog -- named one of the Top 10 Bipolar Blogs of 2007 by PsychCentral -- is about mental illness policy, news, personal journeys and more.