Dearest Liz:

WOW! If you can wake up looking that great, then you have nothing to worry about on the fashion judgment circuit ( for a second there I thought you were going to get a little more revealing, which made me blush {laughing}, and then feel a little disturbed thinking it was your grandmothers pajamas { turning to my natural purple/green skin tone}. I do think that professional type photo you had on the other post was incredibly beautiful though! But enough flattery; I hate when I get all mushy and nice like this {bows head in shame}.

The beginning of the video should have had some back ground music playing like “You’re so vain, I bet you think this song is about you, don’t you, don’t you” {smirking}.
I personal stay away from the vivid dream stuff; last time I had one, I woke up naked running around in heavy traffic avoiding near dire calamity.

This was one of your best video’s to date without question {applause track plays at 78 speed}. I am just floored to see you once again inspired and on an energetic positive track with no looking back (real applause moment just for you Liz).

Amazing what a couple of weeks of me being away and not posting can do {I coughed up my left lung laughing on that one}. I know you threw in that emotion filled ending just to get me teary eyed. That was totally uncalled for; Kleenex is getting so expensive now a day’s you know {bouncing off the walls in folly}.

Anywise, thank you for just being your wonderful self Liz. I noticed your head appeared a little larger in this video? I’m wondering if all this recent success has had a biochemical effect on your brain chemistry and is causing a swelling effect. Maybe you should check that out with Dr. Fink. I’m so impulsive sometimes; I had to fight myself from typing Dr. Rat Fink there {chuckle}.

Yours truly
Stan

HI Liz, great to see you...not so great that you are so fatigued.
Does this feel different than when you are depressed? I know you struggle alot with depression too.
bizi

Bonjour,

I think fatigue is my middle name if not my first name. I've always been 'tired'... all my life. as well as being a shallow breather. Some say it matches my persona. But, I do think that they are both related. Since taking meds, I've noticed that my breathing has improved and fatigue, while awake, has greatly subsided. But, I do sleep a lot. A typical night is around 10 to 12 hours with maybe a two hour nap in the afternoon if I only get 8 hours. The upside is that my waking hours are actually awake and productive though, I would never be able to hold a real job with that kind of down time. The wall hits me around 2 or 3 in the afternoon to the point where I could sleep standing up.

As you well know, I had a little episode the other day which does happen on occasion. Problem is that my 'rythm' gets so whacked out that afterwards I may sleep even more than 'normal'.

Today was not a good day. I felt a dam of tears pressing against my every word waiting for any reason to burst forth. Embarrassing when you're trying to deal with business people. Anxieties are insinuating themselves again and wondered if I might need to up the meds.

Also have vivid dreams and they're usually intense. Last night.... I felt a connection with a young brunette that forced us to meet eye to eye within millimeters of touching and spent hours talking at superspeed that our speech was more like the buzzing of bees though the words were as clear as mud. So many good dreams that the fear is wanting that life more than reality.

Bonne nuit.....

p.s. I look more like Nick Nolte's mug shot in the morning. http://www.virginmedia.com/microsites/siren/slideshow/mugshots/img_4.jpg

After I got on meds after years of not remembering any dreams whatsoever, I now have vivid, bizarre dreams every single night. Sometimes I am tired from all the dreaming.

Mainly I am writing to let you know that even first thing in the morning you are a babe.

Liz,
I'm looking forward to hearing your thoughts about fatigue. Effexor keeps my mood under control, but I sure feel wiped out after doing about 20% of what most people do in a productive day. Fatigue (and weight gain) is a real pain.
Thanks, I'm really glad to have found your blog!
George

Another thing about dreams and I was wondering if others have this issue: not all the time, but from time to time when I recall a dream I have trouble distinguishing whether it was a dream or reality. They sometimes blend.

Moin!

Greetings from one of your readers from Germany (yes, "Willkommen" was correct) :-)

The first post of yours I commented on seemed like you were waving your middle finger in the face of Wyeth ... it's nice to see you now waving it under glamour's nose!

Hey Liz, I just left a comment on YouTube; I should've left it here. I found your blog via HuffPo, and I have bipolar I myself.

I took Seroquel for years, and that gave me the worst fatigue, not to mention weight gain and emotional apathy. I don't take it anymore, and I still have the fatigue, so maybe something else is causing it...

Anyway, I'll be following your blog closely. You've assured me that I'm not alone in all I'm dealing with. Thanks a million.

You make the just-rolled-out-of-bed look appear very glamorous. It's the vintage bedwear, probably, tres chic.

I think I'm experiencing Paxil poop-out. This sucks. I thought one drug would fix all. What's with that? Joking aside, this week's been hell.

Hi Liz!

Thank you so much. You have no idea. Found you from Salon, and Mad Pride links, and sitting here jaw open and thinking somebody else out there who is highly functional, but just needs a little goddam understanding.

Bipolar I, went through the cocktails, last one out was Lamictal and Neurontin combo...none of them seem to work as well as a small amount of pot every day. The extremes still come, but a bowl can usually take the worst of the gnawing feeling away, enough to get through to another day at least.

God, I'm still just sitting here beaming, Thank you, thank all of you for being here, for talking about this.

Hi Liz! Say what you will, but you look fantastic in the morning, even if you haven't brushed your teeth, Love what you're doing here.

Liz,

Even when you first awaken, you look as ravishing and cuddly as always!

-- Dennis